25.10.08

home swt home....not...akan datang..

hey ppl...my return flight has been confirm...details as follows:

date: 13nov08
eta: 1930hrs sg time
flight: qf 51
terminal: t1

as much as im happy tat im going back..kinda feel a bit of shi luo gan nw...dunno y...kena shoot by sis say im depress of being here...im jus lonely k...?? as much as i tot i'll be making frenz but i aint..

tink me n rmie has been ren-ing each other...quite surprise tat i didnt flare during da period im here...hmz..maybe a couple of times raise my voice abit..but other than tat..dun tink i got angry or mad...got bit unhappiness but still can make do w it..i tink both of us r trying to tolerate each other...but i very scare ren nai shi you ji xian de...n i dun wish us to blow up...

sometimes..jus sometimes..i jus kinda feel kena look no up...from da way i was being treated..from da way i was being told off...watever...i try to tell myself i know who i am..i know wat i can do wat i cannot do...i know im lazy at times...but im trying ok...im nt like u...n i dun wish to be like u...watever...

exams coming..i better start studying...first ppr on da 6nov...2nd ppr 8nov..last ppr 12nov..only gt 3 ppr...da other course no final exams..purely on the essays..which mostly helped by yuyu..who took da effort to look thru n edit nice nice both my 1000 and 2000 words essay..which r da longest bloodest essays tat i ever gonna write....tks babe...

gonna so x_x next yr...nv tot i would be so homesick...if only i made frenz...sometimes i tell myself...btw..next wk is study break...

Posted by dotsux at 10/25/2008 07:48:00 pm

14.10.08

so far away...

忽然间　我们被沉默包围
有种感觉无法形容　但很美
一瞬间　忘了爱曾让我心碎
这默契取代不安的氛围
让我勇敢爱　不后退

So Far Away
一路寻觅多少回　爱最后不知所为
身边仍然是空位

So Far Away
受的伤究竟为谁
过去在心中积累　谁体会
原来身边就是你 {原来一直都是你}

Not Far Away
猜想你　此刻心里想着谁
你总微笑甩甩头发让风吹

你是谁　带走夜里的漆黑
留下一整绽的星空　让我沉醉
才明白幸福　并不远
曾经梦想完美的爱情
其实并不存在　当我看着你
灵魂揭晓答案

Posted by dotsux at 10/14/2008 10:58:00 pm

counting down to exams = counting down to home

the time has finally come...home is nt far away..but da stupid exams r being slam between me n my beloved changi airport...muahaha..

last wk was a hectic...stomach filling...fun...filled days...xh's fren came over to visit her..so we decided to rent car so tat its easier to travel ard...act nt tat exp....cheaper tat sg tat is..plus da exchange rates has been quite low recently...went to hug koala bear @ lone pine...and went to movie world..!! dun worry gals..when u all come over next yr..we still can go again..muahaha...most of da pics r in fb..so guys..pls do myself a flavor to see da pics there k...? hehe~

so addicted to fated to love you tat i watch da entire series online...!! risking my quota...but lucky nv..n its coming to da end of da month for da package...its so nice lar...lame...funny...but still at da same time...da power of ou siang ju...romantic...so make ppl wanna go tan lian ai..muahaha...=P hmz..can consider buying when i go back go sg..still got lan qiu hou...feng mi xing yu cao...so many shows..!! nice nice...but nw is da time to resist such temptations...told myself tat i cant watch anymore online shows once im done w ming zhong...need to study...!! left 2000words essay to conquer...and a design poject to finish...jia you ocs...haha..

so nt gd at my design course lor..arghz..didnt manage to score will in da online tutorials...da last proj my grp also didnt really score tat well..tink exams i pass i bery happy alr...although its mostly mcqs...but their mcq can kill de...kaoz...plus da lect always rd off da no. before multipling...hai my ans i must always tink whether rite or nt..coz quite off from the mcq ones lor..

hmz..after some consultation w da gals...i did someting which i nv tot i had da courage too..n appearantly stt is rite..after so many yrs..we're jus frenz..n after i did..i act felt better...didnt tink so much...manage to chat as well..though it was a short one...but at least i know we're on talking terms..though it was me who rejected when first approach da last many yrs ago...finally can put my tots to rest n concentrate on exams...come to tink of it..part of who i am was build up from there...i like pigs stuff lar..enjoy cycling ard da island lar..study abit maybe..oh well..ppl grow and change..nt only me...appearantly there's some changes over tat side too..dun feel da same abt there anymore..someting i see n felt is diff..or am i too sensitive..? over da yrs..i did tot of wats da feeling abt me...? but try nt to tink so much..coz its none of da concern anymore of me..have no rites to bother perhaps..but am still quite pissed when i saw what i saw..dunno y also..hmz..but as long as its nt who i tot it is...any other person is fine...!! muahaha...evil...

act there's so much i wanted to type..before i started...all da words were in my mind...but when i started typing..i kinda got lost...dunno wat to say...oh well..will add more when i recall...miss home..miss my family..poor chev is having a fever lar..hope she getting better n sis..u better start teaching her hw to call yiyi...im coming back k..u got 1 more month left only..!! muahaha...n of coz i miss all my frenz..ppl..u can start planning for our trips...heartbond kl trip im in...attitudez..have u all decided le ma..? n my poly frenz seems to be lost in transaction...dunno where they go can..all so quiet...must be exams coming also...haiz..sometimes im glad tat i cant get into local uni..hehe..gd luck guys...!!

part 2 of whining n blogging...

start to like walking back home from sch...(dun really look 4ward to walking to sch coz most of da time cant take my time n stroll lar..i mean those who know me shld knw..but better le k..im nt late...its only very on time..) can take my time..slowly walk..plus nw da trees start to grow nice purple flowers...can xing shang...listening to songs..n perhaps sort out my tots..been tinking too much lately..hmph...

Posted by dotsux at 10/14/2008 06:49:00 pm

2.10.08

is it really "there's nuting i can do abt it..?"

hmz..its term break...suppose to be more hardworking..(as planned..but u know..tings dun always go as u plan..haha...excuses...=/) but...i've became as nua as ever...

maths...dunno hw to do...forget it...put one side...major assignment due on da 1st day of sch start...dunno hw to do...forget it...put one side...tutorial...? hmz...can consider...try ahz...(today..thurs...than i take out n try...see lar...wat "gd student i am...") dunno wats gotten into me...

was telling cy on msn...my mind kept drifting n drifting..dunno where it wans to drift to also...there's nuting at home...i even tried to stop using the com in da day...but...but...i stood up after doing a few questions..n start wondering n walking ard the hse...the next door neighbours..abnn..hasnt been home for wks...was telling xh...did someting happen to them...? dun wait we suddenly get smelly smell...so..today...i was so bored...i took a chair...n climb up to look over their fence to see if i can spot any clues in their yard..or hoping they nv draw da living rm curtains...tink im going mad...home sicking mad...

been tinking abt home alot lately..tink im really getting da sickness...arghz...shit...if 5 months can do tis to me..i cant imagine next yr when da 9months come n embrace me...s**t...was telling kai...if they seriously cant make it to visit me..i'll save n scrimp n buy myself a ticket home for da july hols...haiz..

spring is here...n weather has been bit crazy...its hot hot hot in da day...but sometimes...it can be very cloudy w no sun n strong cold winds...my face is getting from bad to worse..alr bu hao kan..but nw..is bu neng kan...so many yi li yi li on my forhead can...tried tying my hair..but my fringe nt long enough n i happily broke my hair band...nice...next yr im gonna bring extra everyting including hair band...!

haven been watching movies for ages...really miss going to da movies...haiz..too bad roommie dun like to watch eng movies...go back..i will cheong cheong cheong...been watching shows online too...hmz..20gb mite seems little to u guys..but to me..i can do wonders out of it..last month..i watch dark knight...these few days..ive been watching fated to love..but gotta watch da quota...careful cant exceed..if nt have to pay more money...glad tat ll dun use internet at home..they go back to their office everyday after dnr to use internet which is free..=D n roommie also dun really use much..so...dun waste ma...hehe...=P anyways...im suppose to monitor the use also...as long as they got enough to use...=D

went to seaworld on tues w xh n r n his ih frenz...i mean..since he got car..y nt tag along rite..? hehe...da journey there was damn quiet ahz...before tat xh was alr asking hw come we dun talk...but but..nt tat i dun wan to talk..he also dun have much response...so...listen to songs lor..lucky they're chinese songs..haha..at least we can sing to da tunes...hehe...=P ent fees to seaworld is quite exp...69bucks can...but go in saw dolphins...seals..lots of seagulls...polar bear n penguins...=D da shows were nt too bad...funny...n really very excited to see da dolphins show...see them do da turns...da leaps...n jumps...da interactions w da trainers...omg..they're really amazing creatures...u'll start wondering hw nice if im a trainer too...can work w such wonderful animals...ahz....=)

lunch was at seaworld...da amazing ting was...both me n xh finished our food...but they didnt...was telling her..coz we got da gt food cant wasted tinking...haha...though i was quite full..but i try to squeeze as much fries i can take..muahaha...save money until abit "short short" le...dnr was at sunnybanks...n on da way..i really learn my lesson of nt talking to r when he's driving...haha...he kept missing a turn or wat...going the wrong way...haha...so...shh...=X dnr was nt bad...chinese food...had fried hor fun w beef...nice nice..big plate also..defintely more worth than da seafood nasi gorang i had at hawken dr...had a glipse of wat sunnybanks had n wat to expect...tmr going...yeah...=D

alot has been going thru my mind...mainly home...love...frenz...really miss them...my family...my frenz...da one ting tat i really hate to happen is becoz of coming here...frenz become strangers...attitudez gals has been trying to webcam w me tis wk...nice...so funny of them..first they went kai's workplace..but as they were using clar's da mobile internet tingy..so da ting was quite lag...than they shifted to mac using tat ting...n they're damn bad lar..showing me tat they're eating sg food...or even mac..but nice of them to leave some for me..haha...tks gals...really miss u all alot..dun forgot our trip when im back k...n all da plans we have made...=D my poly gang...tink they're kinda busy w most of them studying in sch as well...my ncc gang...haha...received an email abt their outing..w our usual supervising conducting safety ting..haha...nice work guys...lets hope nuting will change between all of us k...? n i really wish ting will be da same w/o me ard...though there mite be less crap n lame jokes...muahaha...but...ya..be united ya...=D missing da feeling of being love n loving some1...where is my destiny..? where is my fate..? patience is running out...

some pics i took at seaworld...n on da way back...